My heart hurts. ..

August 1, 2014 by Momma Jon't Know Dack 3 Comments

Hello luvs!
I have missed you all! I am sorry for not writing in awhile but things got crazy with my job situation and then tragedy struck…..my mom called me at 530 am on July 22nd balling her eyes out. She just screamed out JC was killed in a car accident. My heart stopped…I couldnt breathe…I didnt want to believe what she was saying…I started screaming and crying….

JC is my 22 yr old nephew…great kid. Had so much love and life in him and he made friends everywhere. He lived life to the fullest and when he wanted something he made sure he got it. Worked hard and played harder.
Im writing this while tears are flowing down my face. I dont really have a lot of words to say because i am still dealing with the ‘why? How?’ And wishing I would wake up from this nightmare.
But I am not…and I am compelled to write…to write to all of you and tell you a message. We never know when our last day is going to be…so dont wait for happiness, go out and grab it. JC did.
I have been doing a lot of “life thinking” this last week and a half and I can honestly say I am not living enough and I am not happy. Everyone deserves happiness but we settle. Dont settle!
If you are because you dont want to make mistakes well “mistakes” are just lessons learned…and we cant make mistakes with taking chances….and the only chances we regret are the ones we didnt take.
I am sorry for being all philosophical but this tragedy has effected me deeply…and I want to let as many people as I know to get happy…I for one am starting…today…and tomorrow…making the changes I need to to make sure not only I am happy but my beautiful boy Jack is happy.
I am going to stop now because I am shaking…oh…never forget to tell those you care about that you love them…ever!

Love you all,
Momma